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So, you have a big decision to make...

...and the good news is, you can't mess it up. "Whaa?!" I know. I thought it was crazy too until I started doing some reading and found some pretty cool stuff. 

So, you're either making the decision about what college to go to, what to major in, when should you graduate, should I take a gap year, what would I do with the gap year, where should you go to med school, what do you want to be when you grow up, fill in the blank. Yeah, it's overwhelming, I get it. 

The fear of making a decision because we might make the wrong one is not God's heart for us. Yes, there is plan for our life. We hear that all the time, some of us even have the canvas painted on our walls, but you have to believe it. 

Believing that you're powerful enough to mess up the Lord's plan is a dangerous place to be in. Let me remind you, He is sovereign. His plan never fails. 

Real world example: you've probably heard of Jonah. The poor guy that got swallowed by a whale. If you're lucky, you've seen the Veggie Tales episode.

Refresh yourself here: Jonah

Let me remind you, God called him to Nineveh, a pretty bad place with lots of violence, corruptness, a place where "respect" and "civil" were foreign words. 

Jonah didn't listen, he got on a boat and fled to Tarshish, a different, more peaceful, town. So many times in my life I hear the Lord telling me to act on something He desires for me and (if I'm honest) most of the time my first reaction is "oh heck no." My quick speed and agility comes into play and I sprint in the other direction. 

Jonah did exactly this. He caused some serious problem for the crew on the ship when a storm arose and the waves started stacking over the ship.

Then the Lord sent a great wind on the sea, and such a violent storm arose that the ship threatened to break up. All the sailors were afraid and each cried out to his own god. And they threw the cargo into the sea to lighten the ship.
— Jonah 1:4

I mean, this storm was super for real and scary. Jonah knew that the reason the boat was about to sink was his fault so he told them to throw him overboard and they did. This is when the big fish comes in and swallows him whole. 

Inside the belly, Jonah has a huge Revelation where he calls out to God and admits he was wrong and asks for a second chance. The fish eventually spits him out.

Then the word of the Lord came to Jonah a second time: “Go to the great city of Nineveh and proclaim to it the message I give you.”
— Jonah 3: 1-3

God tells him again to go to Nineveh. Finally, Jonah follows, reluctantly though. 

Although the chances of you jumping in a boat instead of a car and being eaten by an animal is close to none, this story speaks volumes to me and my heart. 

Friends, I'm here to tell you, the pressure is friggin' off. Good gravy, take a breath of relief and fully believe and know that the story is already written, in permanent marker. Life seems so crazy and there seems to be so many eraser marks only because we try and write our own story and when it doesn't line up with what the Lord has, we erase it and try to guess again.

How about we stop guessing and we start leaning, we start becoming eager to know what the Lord has next for us? Instead of standing still, let's go ahead and pick up our foot and start leaning forward and trust that He will equip us with the speed and direction. 

Jonah ran from God when it was time for a decision or big change in his life. Sometimes, that's just what's easiest because we hate to think that what God has for us goes against the five year plan we wrote out in our agendas. Be fluid. Be willing. Be able to change the direction you have in your mind and posture your heart so that when the Lord asks, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" your response is "Here I am. Send me!" (Isaiah 6:8)

This can't be your heart if it's engulfed in fear: fear of making the wrong decision, fear of rejection, fear of discomfort. 

This can't be your heart if it's engulfed in pride: "my plan is better", "I can do this on my own."

I would just hate for it to take you being stuck on a boat in a storm or being swallowed by a sea creature for you to fully believe that God is sovereign.

..whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.
— Matthew 10:39

So let's lose our minds, lose our life and seriously mean what we say when we fully surrendered our life to the Lord, okay?

Personal time: this past year has been bombarded with big decisions for me: engagement, wedding planning, sharing finances with my husband, where will we live? What will we do? Will we do this forever? Thomas is in the military so we have to decided whether he should sign for more years, when do we want kids? How will our careers affect that? Oh! and what should we have for dinner?

So, yeah, I getchya. 

When I'm bombarded with some big decisions, I turn on some music and chill and sometimes, I turn on some music and dance so here are a few options for you from my favorites: